just kill me

i am so sad.
i feel so hurt.

how come when i feel love,
it goes away.

people are all leaving me.

oh God, what's happening..

i can't stand being miserable all the time.

i wish someone could understand.

i just can't forget him.

it feels so bad.

it's like a sword through your chest and head,
and you can't even breath anymore.
but you still can see what's going on.

what did i do to deserve this?

how come no one loves me?

how come everybody is leaving me this moment of time?

i need some one by my side so bad.

all i have is my cat.

am i goin to die when i'm 60 & single with 63 cats?

i wish not.

i love him,

he made me so happy.

but why?

why me?

my sisters are all not with me anymore.
they went study and shits.

my parents?
who r u kidding?

they're so freakin bz.
mayb not.

but, what do u xpect?
tellin my parents about my problems?
r u psyched or something?

i see people,
all in love.

i see people,
kissing, madly in love.

i see people,
living life like ever.

i don't know what i'm missing,
i don't know what i'm feeling.

it just hurts so bad that it just,
feels so torturing.

why, man, why?

u mean the world to me.

my sisters meant the whole universe to me.

friends? i don't have any.
sad, but true.

since i'm here,
my life just suffers.

no friends,
no sisters.

what's happening?
what's goin on?


help me.
send me a person,
or maybe a thing that would listen.
i couldn't handle this anymore.
help meee...

i even talk to myself.
i sing to myself.
i cried.
i sulk.
all by myself.

i'm sad, i'm miserable,
i'm tired, i'm useless.


call me ungrateful,
call me a fool,
i don't care,
as long as i'm not a miserable one anymore.


2010 is a fucker,
bring me a lighter,
i want to be a smoker.

i'm just a girl behind a smile.